Who needs Valentine's Day when you have a wonderful husband like mine. Cooks, cleans, walks the dog, irons, good at 'odd jobs' and most of all makes me feel so special every day. So many times his first words are 'are you okay, how you feeling' or just a cuddle with the words 'I'm here' what more could I ask? Would sit up all night with me if necessary and often makes tea at unearthly hours when I can't sleep.
I was feeling quite low this morning, following another very disturbed night. My mind is in turmoil and I'm finding it hard to shut off from all the stuff that's going on and what the next few months will bring. I now feel like I'm looking into a 'black hole' and I imagine that's how everyone with cancer feels as they go through treatment, because there is so much that not even the health professionals can tell you, it seems it's a waiting game and I don't do 'waiting', I'm too organised and need to have my days, months and to some extent, the year planned. I'm learning though!
So I'm concentrating on doing some house improvements, a past time I really enjoy. I like making changes and I have a few in mind - sorry Graham! Also, I feel justified in spending a bit of money and cheering myself up!
We've been out for lunch, taste a little lost on me, but nice to get out. Graham is singing at the 'Ate O'Clock' in York tonight for their Valentine's evening, so I guarantee all the loving couples will have a wonderful evening 'cos he's such a brilliant singer/musician - just another reason why I'm so blessed!
So 'Happy Valentines Graham' I love you. x
